Friday, March 13, 2009
craziness.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
My first wedding anniversary!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
So long 2008!!
I married the love of my life, and the ones who loved me so much divorced.---It hurt so bad. I know it took a lot from my happiness.
I love being married... but I would say the adjustments felt like so many at first, and I'm glad to say that I love being married now!!!
Our family might have divided but I grew closer to sisters...
I grew closer to in-laws...
and learned to appreciate them so much
because they took me in like their own daughter.
I lost a few clients, maybe because they moved away, or maybe wanted someone knew but I gained a lot of great new ones!!
Work had a few slower days, but I learned to appreciate a little extra time.
A lot of things broke this year, and had a lot of maintenance and spent our saved money for something FUN, but just blessed we had the cash to fix everything. And blessed I have a roof over my head as well.
My life has been crazy busy, I feel like I havent been there as much for friends like I should have because times where I wanted to be with friends, I couldn't. I've been hurt because I feel like I've been forgotten a lot. Maybe that's my fault, I don't know but I decided that 2009 was going to be different. I'm going to try to be more available, I'm going to try to get over a few things, Im going to love on ALex the most I can, love on my family regardless of how upset I've been and love on friends too.
This year is my year to love, not to hurt. yay 2009!!!!!!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving... a few days late.
This Thanksgiving was mine and Alex's very first Turkey day as a married couple. When we woke up, or when I woke up, I took a shower and started getting ready to go over to my mom's for breakfast, and I was actually excited because I knew I didnt have to work for a few days!!! YaY!! We were due over there at 10ish, and knowing my mom I knew if we showed up at like 10:30, that would be fine. At 9:30 I told Alex it was time to get up, and being the sleepy head that he is, he didnt listen. Then at 9:45, I told him again he needed to be up. I could feel myself getting crabby but I didn't want to be that way, so I acted fine. We made it over there by 10:30, and my mom wasnt even finished, so that was ok. Breakfast was tastey too! It was nice because my dad was there, so I got to spend time with him as well. We left to go to Springfield, Illinois to visit Alex's family. We had to eat a second meal there, but it was turkey dinner and not breakfast so it was easier to eat because it wasnt like eating the same thing twice. Luckilly I didnt PIG out each time so i was ok. I was fine til I started having mad stomache issues and had to use the bathroom a few times, which sucked but then it was time to leave. Due to my problem, I had to stop at a gas station because I was sooo uncomfortable using their bathroom... but dont worry, I was fine after that haha!!! So then we drove back to the Stl and went to my grandmas. It was fun there, besides the fact that we had to get there so late, but oh well. By that time, i only had food in my belly for my grandma's amazing fruit salad and I made us plates for leftovers the next day. By the time we got home, I watched some TV, went to bed and Alex asked me, "was this a good first thanksgiving being married?" and I dont know, I thought it was soo sweet because all day I wasnt really thinking of it like that, I didnt really have expectations like that. But it was, it was really special. We got along so well, even him being a slowpoke getting ready, or no fights in the car driving for a few hours.... it was a good day. I have so much to be greatful for. Even today we had to do a 4th Thanksgiving, and Alex went, no complaints or anything. I am so thankful for him. What a good first turkey day! or... weekend.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
update on church!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
a new day
Sunday, October 26, 2008
my life.
I just wrote a whole blog but I erased it because I felt like I would look crazy if I posted it. Look at the short passage I found and it speaks for itself. I've been struggling with anxiety lately, there is so much going on in my life and I feel like I always feel something in the pit of my stomache. There is so much worry and its about pleasing others. I try so hard and I need to relax. Can someone just keep me in their prayers, I just feel like I havent been good enough wife, sister, daughter, and friend and I need some reassurance that I am not as bad as I think I am.