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Proverbs 12:25:25 Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.

I just wrote a whole blog but I erased it because I felt like I would look crazy if I posted it. Look at the short passage I found and it speaks for itself. I've been struggling with anxiety lately, there is so much going on in my life and I feel like I always feel something in the pit of my stomache. There is so much worry and its about pleasing others. I try so hard and I need to relax. Can someone just keep me in their prayers, I just feel like I havent been good enough wife, sister, daughter, and friend and I need some reassurance that I am not as bad as I think I am.

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Love Languages

I started reading the Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman, and I haven't had a lot of time to read it but I am about 100 pages into it, but I just wanted to say how much I am inspired by it. The other day, while having a major bout of PMS, Alex was really starting to get to me. Anyone who deals with bad PMS would understand, but I seriously had these crazy thoughts that I wasn't happy and Alex doesn't understand me and all this crap. I don't really feel that way but whenever I am crabby like that it seems like nothing goes right. I feel like everything I do is unnoticed and I feel like things he does bugs me. HA. sorry for saying that!!! So anyway I felt like I needed to control my feelings and I prayed and asked God to forgive me for all the negativity. As I was praying I felt like I needed to get the book out and start reading it. I was all achy and I decided to get in the tub and start my book. I just really felt like I could relate, and things I read, I was like, man, I do that, or I think like that, I can nag instead of telling him what I would really appreciate. Like I said though, I am not finished with the book but I have read about words of affirmation, quality time, and gifts. I feel that I am learning what Alex likes and what I like and any time I feel the urge to nag or to complain, I think of the book and how I'm not going to get anywhere acting like that. I also learned that my husband really likes words of affirmation and I have definitely been more encouraging to him and I let him know how appreciative I am when he takes out the trash or cleans out the pantry or the yard. Just a few kind words and he has done more in a few days that he has the past few months. I even expressed to him that I like quality time and he even came to babysit with me to night at a friends house, which isn't normal. I thank God because I know He knows what we both need and He wants us to be happy and have a successful marriage. I'm excited because Alex is going to read the book too. At first he was thinking why are you reading that, we're not having any major problems, but I answered him by letting him know I was willing to do anything to keep our marriage strong and to help us understand each other more. And I am. He's my favorite person on earth!
SO, if you haven't read it, its a good idea to do so if you're in a relationship or marriage.

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I have been really lazy lately. I mean not really because I work allllll the time, so I guess that doesnt make me lazy. But when it comes to working out, or leaving early to run a few errands before work, or filling out those pampered chef invites for my party on NOv. 3. Seriously though, Im on here when I should be doing so much more. Or on Myspace or Facebook or checking my email constantly. Oooh I need some drive and motivation!!!!