Happy Thanksgiving... a few days late.

This Thanksgiving was mine and Alex's very first Turkey day as a married couple. When we woke up, or when I woke up, I took a shower and started getting ready to go over to my mom's for breakfast, and I was actually excited because I knew I didnt have to work for a few days!!! YaY!! We were due over there at 10ish, and knowing my mom I knew if we showed up at like 10:30, that would be fine. At 9:30 I told Alex it was time to get up, and being the sleepy head that he is, he didnt listen. Then at 9:45, I told him again he needed to be up. I could feel myself getting crabby but I didn't want to be that way, so I acted fine. We made it over there by 10:30, and my mom wasnt even finished, so that was ok. Breakfast was tastey too! It was nice because my dad was there, so I got to spend time with him as well. We left to go to Springfield, Illinois to visit Alex's family. We had to eat a second meal there, but it was turkey dinner and not breakfast so it was easier to eat because it wasnt like eating the same thing twice. Luckilly I didnt PIG out each time so i was ok. I was fine til I started having mad stomache issues and had to use the bathroom a few times, which sucked but then it was time to leave. Due to my problem, I had to stop at a gas station because I was sooo uncomfortable using their bathroom... but dont worry, I was fine after that haha!!! So then we drove back to the Stl and went to my grandmas. It was fun there, besides the fact that we had to get there so late, but oh well. By that time, i only had food in my belly for my grandma's amazing fruit salad and I made us plates for leftovers the next day. By the time we got home, I watched some TV, went to bed and Alex asked me, "was this a good first thanksgiving being married?" and I dont know, I thought it was soo sweet because all day I wasnt really thinking of it like that, I didnt really have expectations like that. But it was, it was really special. We got along so well, even him being a slowpoke getting ready, or no fights in the car driving for a few hours.... it was a good day. I have so much to be greatful for. Even today we had to do a 4th Thanksgiving, and Alex went, no complaints or anything. I am so thankful for him. What a good first turkey day! or... weekend.

update on church!

Hey everybody... I just want to let you know that Alex and I have gone to church together 3 weeks in a row. To some of you, that's nothing but to me, it's a big deal. I have always been a regular churchgoer, but I would say since just before I got married, the number of times I went started to dwindle down. No reason really, other than that it was the only day I got to sleep in and like I said before, Alex works most Sundays and I would have to go by myself. Even in our dating relationship, we only went together every once in awhile and that was because for four years, he was away at school. So like I said, we made a decision that we would go every week, and so we have. I feel so much better. We are going to THE JOURNEY, and it's great for us. We found a neutral place to go, not his family's church, not mine, but this is ours and we are happy. My mood has even been better too! I just thought you would like to know that!!!!!!!!

a new day

I have been feeling very convicted lately because I haven't been going to church. It's kind of like exercising. When you have been on a regimen and you're working out all the time you don't want to skip a day. But, as you skip more days its easier to stop. Then you start noticing that you are packing on the pounds, you know it is time to get back on track. I used to go to church every Sunday and I felt horrible if I missed one day. But as it happens more often, the easier it was for me to miss it. Well, I am packing on the pounds with my relationship with God and I need to get back to my old regimen. Alex and I got up for church today and we decided that we will go every week if it means we have to go on a Saturday night if we cant go Sunday morning, or even Sunday night too. I know that church is important for me, and my marriage. And sometimes things come up, but I am definitely making sure its a way of life again.

my life.

Proverbs 12:25:25 Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad.

I just wrote a whole blog but I erased it because I felt like I would look crazy if I posted it. Look at the short passage I found and it speaks for itself. I've been struggling with anxiety lately, there is so much going on in my life and I feel like I always feel something in the pit of my stomache. There is so much worry and its about pleasing others. I try so hard and I need to relax. Can someone just keep me in their prayers, I just feel like I havent been good enough wife, sister, daughter, and friend and I need some reassurance that I am not as bad as I think I am.

friends on here

How does everyone have a friends list. I can't figure out how to add people!!!!!!!

Love Languages

I started reading the Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman, and I haven't had a lot of time to read it but I am about 100 pages into it, but I just wanted to say how much I am inspired by it. The other day, while having a major bout of PMS, Alex was really starting to get to me. Anyone who deals with bad PMS would understand, but I seriously had these crazy thoughts that I wasn't happy and Alex doesn't understand me and all this crap. I don't really feel that way but whenever I am crabby like that it seems like nothing goes right. I feel like everything I do is unnoticed and I feel like things he does bugs me. HA. sorry for saying that!!! So anyway I felt like I needed to control my feelings and I prayed and asked God to forgive me for all the negativity. As I was praying I felt like I needed to get the book out and start reading it. I was all achy and I decided to get in the tub and start my book. I just really felt like I could relate, and things I read, I was like, man, I do that, or I think like that, I can nag instead of telling him what I would really appreciate. Like I said though, I am not finished with the book but I have read about words of affirmation, quality time, and gifts. I feel that I am learning what Alex likes and what I like and any time I feel the urge to nag or to complain, I think of the book and how I'm not going to get anywhere acting like that. I also learned that my husband really likes words of affirmation and I have definitely been more encouraging to him and I let him know how appreciative I am when he takes out the trash or cleans out the pantry or the yard. Just a few kind words and he has done more in a few days that he has the past few months. I even expressed to him that I like quality time and he even came to babysit with me to night at a friends house, which isn't normal. I thank God because I know He knows what we both need and He wants us to be happy and have a successful marriage. I'm excited because Alex is going to read the book too. At first he was thinking why are you reading that, we're not having any major problems, but I answered him by letting him know I was willing to do anything to keep our marriage strong and to help us understand each other more. And I am. He's my favorite person on earth!
SO, if you haven't read it, its a good idea to do so if you're in a relationship or marriage.

eeeeeh!

I have been really lazy lately. I mean not really because I work allllll the time, so I guess that doesnt make me lazy. But when it comes to working out, or leaving early to run a few errands before work, or filling out those pampered chef invites for my party on NOv. 3. Seriously though, Im on here when I should be doing so much more. Or on Myspace or Facebook or checking my email constantly. Oooh I need some drive and motivation!!!!

Luvee, You will never see this because you don't even know I have this page. You don't even check your myspace or facebook. It took you like 7months to confirm we were married on facebook. That's okay. I know you love me!! It just makes me feel good to do this. Sometimes I complain to you, about things you don't care about. Sometimes I nag to you. Just know that that's what I do sometimes. My family always gave me so much crap about being a big complainer!! And I feel bad about that but hey, you have to take the good with the bad, right? I want you to know that I love you so much, you are my world, my inspiration, and my happiness. I thank God that He put you in my life. You make me feel so good sometimes. The things you say to me, when I am feeling down, you really know how to put a smile on my face. You make me feel so loved. When we are out in public and I catch you staring at me, and I tease you but I like it. Just when I think maybe you wish you had that single life like your friends, you say or do something that makes me know you love your life. Like when you were out of town and had to go to bed alone, and how you were so much luckier than your friends because you know at night time you get to be with me. I love you, I love who you've made me, and I am blessed to be loved by you. Thanks for being my other half! love your wifey

to my sister, Keri

I hope you see that I wrote this about you but I dont want to bring it to your attention because I think that when you stumble across it one day, it will have that much more of an impact on you. I am actually getting emotional writing this because i want you to know how special you are to me. This whole situation with Mom and Dad, sometimes I feel like I am the only one who can't get over it and as time goes on, I ask myself and I ask Alex, "Should I still feel this way, should i still feel like my family is broken?" It is broken, and my heart hurts really bad from it. I try to act like its ok, but on a regular basis I still find myself thinking about it, wondering what went wrong and why couldn't they fix it. I know they loved eachother. I think part of the reason I get so upset is that I based my relationship with Alex on what theirs was. I know they were good to eachother and that they loved eachother. They were the foundation of our family. I just wanted to be like them. The rug got ripped from underneath me. As I'm trying to get back up, I look around at our broken family, but still intact, I see you. I see you and Benji and your special family. I am so glad you guys are in my life, that i have you guys now to be that foundation. God had a plan when he brought you two together. Did you ever think that you were going to be such an example to our family? Not only to me and Alex, but to Michelle and Ryan, to Mindy and her future and to Paul as well. And to all the kids. We all love you guys so much and I am truly blessed to know that I have a sister I can go to if ever I need anything. Thank you for impacting my life. I love you!

Frustration

This blog is going to be a crappy one. I am really annoyed and am feeling very unappreciated. I hate to complain but I try so hard to please people and I dont always seem to get the same in return. I wish I didn't care so much but I do. God, please help me to be more carefree, and if I am expecting too much from a certain someone, show me how to calm down and get over it. I need YOU more than ever.

man on man

I feel like summer has just begun but it really hasn't. It's that I'm finally doing the summer things, going and getting ice cream, going to baseball games, and even a bit of travelling. Alex and I went to Chicago a few weeks ago and let me tell you, we had a great time. We learned, no we didn't, we have always known that we are horrible with directions and got lost a number of times. It's not so much that I am bad at directions. It's that sometimes, I don't pay attention to where we are going because I expect him to know what's going on. That gets us in trouble!!! Oh well, it was still an amazing time. Marriage is good for us. It took some time to adjust, but we're for real turning into that old married couple! Back to summer though, I wish life would just slow down sometimes so I can really take it in. The busy work schedule takes away from my summer, hardly noticing it's here. But from here on out I promise myself to enjoy it more. And I will, because next wednesday I leave for family camp!!!! which when I was a kid, was an end to summer. Better luck next year!

my first blog

Tonight is my first blog on here. Jacque introduced me to this. It created a curiousity in me to check it out. I really dont have much to say for now, not sure how many details I am ready to give up on here just yet. Maybe, I'm just not in the mood to get personal, but I feel nosey enough to figure out what others are saying!!! Have a good night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1