Luvee, You will never see this because you don't even know I have this page. You don't even check your myspace or facebook. It took you like 7months to confirm we were married on facebook. That's okay. I know you love me!! It just makes me feel good to do this. Sometimes I complain to you, about things you don't care about. Sometimes I nag to you. Just know that that's what I do sometimes. My family always gave me so much crap about being a big complainer!! And I feel bad about that but hey, you have to take the good with the bad, right? I want you to know that I love you so much, you are my world, my inspiration, and my happiness. I thank God that He put you in my life. You make me feel so good sometimes. The things you say to me, when I am feeling down, you really know how to put a smile on my face. You make me feel so loved. When we are out in public and I catch you staring at me, and I tease you but I like it. Just when I think maybe you wish you had that single life like your friends, you say or do something that makes me know you love your life. Like when you were out of town and had to go to bed alone, and how you were so much luckier than your friends because you know at night time you get to be with me. I love you, I love who you've made me, and I am blessed to be loved by you. Thanks for being my other half! love your wifey

to my sister, Keri

I hope you see that I wrote this about you but I dont want to bring it to your attention because I think that when you stumble across it one day, it will have that much more of an impact on you. I am actually getting emotional writing this because i want you to know how special you are to me. This whole situation with Mom and Dad, sometimes I feel like I am the only one who can't get over it and as time goes on, I ask myself and I ask Alex, "Should I still feel this way, should i still feel like my family is broken?" It is broken, and my heart hurts really bad from it. I try to act like its ok, but on a regular basis I still find myself thinking about it, wondering what went wrong and why couldn't they fix it. I know they loved eachother. I think part of the reason I get so upset is that I based my relationship with Alex on what theirs was. I know they were good to eachother and that they loved eachother. They were the foundation of our family. I just wanted to be like them. The rug got ripped from underneath me. As I'm trying to get back up, I look around at our broken family, but still intact, I see you. I see you and Benji and your special family. I am so glad you guys are in my life, that i have you guys now to be that foundation. God had a plan when he brought you two together. Did you ever think that you were going to be such an example to our family? Not only to me and Alex, but to Michelle and Ryan, to Mindy and her future and to Paul as well. And to all the kids. We all love you guys so much and I am truly blessed to know that I have a sister I can go to if ever I need anything. Thank you for impacting my life. I love you!

Frustration

This blog is going to be a crappy one. I am really annoyed and am feeling very unappreciated. I hate to complain but I try so hard to please people and I dont always seem to get the same in return. I wish I didn't care so much but I do. God, please help me to be more carefree, and if I am expecting too much from a certain someone, show me how to calm down and get over it. I need YOU more than ever.

man on man

I feel like summer has just begun but it really hasn't. It's that I'm finally doing the summer things, going and getting ice cream, going to baseball games, and even a bit of travelling. Alex and I went to Chicago a few weeks ago and let me tell you, we had a great time. We learned, no we didn't, we have always known that we are horrible with directions and got lost a number of times. It's not so much that I am bad at directions. It's that sometimes, I don't pay attention to where we are going because I expect him to know what's going on. That gets us in trouble!!! Oh well, it was still an amazing time. Marriage is good for us. It took some time to adjust, but we're for real turning into that old married couple! Back to summer though, I wish life would just slow down sometimes so I can really take it in. The busy work schedule takes away from my summer, hardly noticing it's here. But from here on out I promise myself to enjoy it more. And I will, because next wednesday I leave for family camp!!!! which when I was a kid, was an end to summer. Better luck next year!

my first blog

Tonight is my first blog on here. Jacque introduced me to this. It created a curiousity in me to check it out. I really dont have much to say for now, not sure how many details I am ready to give up on here just yet. Maybe, I'm just not in the mood to get personal, but I feel nosey enough to figure out what others are saying!!! Have a good night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1